Wow. Right now, I feel like I'm in a music video: Rain falling heavily outside, lightning flashing through the sky, a lamp lighting up the whole room, lecture notes and tutorial sheets on my desk, and an oldies song playing on the radio (or rather computer). What music video could it be? I was thinking of this Side A song:

So many questions, but the answers are so few

...(playing with the lyrics)...

All I really know is, QUESTION TWO

Hahaha! =D Just trying to cheer you (and myself) up guys. Actually, this whole "So Many Questions Video" was conceived by joycie, jussy and evad years ago while preparing for the exams. The "original video" was slightly different from the scene now. First, it was a girl who starred on the video. Second, the girl was staring out the window, reminiscing some things (like chasing the lecturer to ask some questions). I'm not so sure if that was the original idea. You know, memory deteriorates over time.

Well you might be wondering why there were lecture notes and other academic stuff on my desk. I was studying (or trying to study). Exams are less than a month away, and I'm starting to feel the exam breeze. By the way, it's not a good breeze!

Exams are coming! That's it. I've never felt this alarmed before. In the previous sems, I only start to panic 1 to 2 weeks before the exams start. But now! Wow! I think I spent so much time trying to catch up with and understand our lessons. Thanks to our beloved university, they changed the curriculum when we entered 2nd year. Because of this change, we are learning some things that the final year students are learning now (SHOCK) and we don't have past year papers to refer to! That is really good!! (DUUHH!)

But I'm trying to lean on the positive side. Maybe it's also for our benefit. We can learn things early so that we don't have lots of things to deal with in the later years. It can also prepare us for the harder lessons to come. Ain't I right?

Anyway, I really hate this journal topic. It's all about exams and academic stuff. I feel like deleting this but I'll be keeping this for the sake of updating.

To make this entry a likeable one, I'm gonna talk about my faith. Quite interesting right?

I've never written anything about my faith, religion or whatever you may call it. I'm a Christian. I go to church every Sunday (I think I have some entries that mention about me going to church). I was baptized when I was less than a year old. I grew up in a Christian family. But I only started to build a relationship with God when I was in high school. It's not a steady relationship. My faith on him has been tested many times before. There was even some point in time when I questioned God's existence. True. A Christian is never immune to Satan's sting.

Thanks to my coming here, my faith on God has grown a lot. Before I came here, I never knew how important God was in my life. To me, He was just someone I should worship and obey. But now, He is someone who controls my whole life. He created me for a purpose. Everything I do is for His greater glory. I'm not just saying things. I truly believe in it.

I may appear to know nothing about Christ. I may have sinned many times. I may have hurt other people as well. But still, Christ chose to forgive me. Christ forgave us all. That's because He loves us. Yeah, He loves us.

Now, I've been trying to keep my faith steady, since faith in Him is the only way I could live with Him in heaven.

That's all I could say about my faith. I'm so glad that I let these all out. Just want to say that I love and trust God, no matter what happens. Yeah, I love God!

Anyway that's all. Got to sleep now.

Before I go, here is one Christian song I really like.

With Every Breath
by Leigh Nash and Dan Haseltine

Halleluja from the heavens
Halleluja in the heights above the earth
Hallelujah all His angels
Hallelujah for the last will be first
let everything that has breath praise the Lord
let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Hallelujah in the morning
Hallelujah for the beauty of His scars
Hallelujah in the twilight
Hallelujah sun and moon and shining stars
let everything that has breath praise the Lord
let everything that has breath praise the Lord

when the night seems so long (throw your hands to the sky)
you can sing a new song (wipe the tears from your eyes)
when you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside

for all your times of laughter
in every hopeful prayer
when the world weighs on your shoulders
through sorrow and your despair
with everything, with every breath, praise the Lord
let everything, that has breath praise the Lord
let everything that has breath praise the Lord
let everything that has breath praise the Lord
let everything that has breath praise the Lord
let everything, that has breath praise the Lord

when the night seems so long (throw your hands to the sky)
you can sing a new song (wipe the tears from your eyes)
when you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside